Philippians 4:6-7 (ESV)
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Expectations seem to be entwined with the concept of Hope. How is it possible to have Hope & Faith, and not have specific expectations?
Today, I read an email that broke my heart. It was a specific job that never gave me a chance for an interview. Yet, this specific job was one I felt both lead to apply for through prayer & that I was actually qualified for.
This job paid the amount I needed to cover my bills, it qualified for PSLF (Public Student Loan Forgiveness), it had potential for career growth, and it even had government benefits. Being a government IT job, it had a mission statement that I believed in, as I believe in the prosperity of our United States government.
When I was filling out the application, I really believed that a door would open here. My expectations did not meet reality. The reality is that this door did NOT open. At least not today. Not Yet. Not currently. Maybe not ever.
Sometimes, I wish God would just speak. Yes, He speaks through the Bible.
But I mean, actually speak to me. To clearly tell me what my next step is. What my next path should be. To clearly tell me what job I should apply for & what I need to say in the application process, in the interview, during my first day, the first week, and how to succeed in my first year & beyond.
I am so tired of wasting my time.
I am so tired of being disappointed.
I am so tired of expectations.
Philippians 4:6-7 (ESV)
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
God tells me not to be anxious.
To give Him my requests, my expectations. All of my hopes & dreams. My attitude. My depression. My sadness. My intelligence. My mind. My heart. My soul. My body. In reality, all I am really doing is giving back to Him, what He created, as He actually created ALL OF ME.
Romans 8:28 (ESV): “And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose.”
God will take my expectations, my hopes, and my dreams & make them new.
God makes all things new. He gave me a new heart in 2012. He took my heart of cold & stone, and made it new. He breathed life into my heart of cold, dark, stone. He can take & will take & does take all of our lives & works it out for good, as Romans states.
Philippians 4:6-7 (ESV)
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
So, God, I am making my requests known to you. You will fulfill all that you promise & you promise good.
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